It is a frequent surprise to me just how quickly the general feel of life can change. Having felt rather low for several days now, this evening quite suddenly I find that things have taken on a very different aspect.
Having made the commitment to go ahead with my project requiring a model, we spoke on the ‘phone today and we have agreed on a session next week. It has been necessary for me to overcome the niggling feeling at the back of my mind that only real artists use professional models, and is that really for the likes of me? I have decided to award myself a vote of confidence, and that makes a great deal of difference.
Also, it is remarkable how a very few words can cause a misunderstanding to evaporate. Yesterday I had a (somewhat belated) very generous birthday present from a member of the family. The rain has stopped and it has been possible to spend the whole afternoon in the garden. Our home-grown salad is flourishing, and really added a definite sense of something special to tonight’s dinner. I had an email message this afternoon to tell me that the regional Italian Circle is soon to renew its activities following a year of closure because of the pandemic.
After having had a poor night’s sleep, and consequently crawling out of bed in a wretched state this morning, suddenly the world had taken on a very different aspect. Life seems to be opening up again.