Chicken? or good sense?

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Something happened this morning which I can never remember happening before. I reached the decision that I am simply not capable of undertaking the task I had set myself.

Of course, it is a relatively normal experience that one decides that a pice of work, on completion, is disappointing. It has also been the case that, after working on a picture for some time, I reached the decision that the original concept was less interesting than originally it seemed to be. This is different.

I have been working on an idea for a couple of weeks now, off and on, but this morning I came to the realisation that I do not have the technical ability to bring it to a conclusion in a condition which I might want to show to anybody else. The idea, as originally conceived, is just beyond my capabilities. I had bitten off more than I could ever chew.

At first I drove myself on, thinking that my doubts were no more than cowardice. Then the truth began to sink in. My original idea, although perhaps interesting, demanded a technical capacity which I do not possess. What its more, I am unwilling (and perhaps unable) to make the investment which could bring me close to the standard I would find acceptable.

A part of me is sad about this, because this project came as a relief after a fallow period in which I had been searching for an idea on which to work. I am sure, however, that my decision is the product of good dense rather than cowardice. Well …. where to now?

16 thoughts on “Chicken? or good sense?”

  1. Hello John, I am sorry to hear that your idea has not come to fruition.
    Have you decided on an image for your Christmas card this year? That might be a good project to consider as it’s fast approaching!
    I’m missing you and Elspeth so I’ll try to pop by sometime.
    Lynrose

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    • It would be great to see you again. I have a stack of art magazines to give you. No Christmas card ideas as yet.

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    • It would be good to see you again. Apart from anything else I have
      a growing pile of art magazines for you. Nothing on the Christmas front as yet. I did have a very good walk locally this morning, and have come back with “an idea”.

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